Kim and I
love old barns. Last week we took a drive just to photograph some of the ones
we had seen here in northern Michigan. (Truth be told: We were looking for one
specific barn, but we couldn’t remember where we’d seen it. Never did find it.)
The older we get, the more we appreciate old barns. They remind us of simpler times, though to be honest, those times, for us, are largely imagined, not remembered – neither of us has ever lived on a farm. (In Darien, Connecticut, we had golf courses instead of farms.) But even knowing that the nostalgia is fake, it still has its power.
She elaborated, perhaps feeling the effects of her chemo on her hormones and energy: We may have lost some paint . . .
we may lean a bit to the side . . .
our foundation may need some shoring up, we leak a bit . . .
things are growing on us and in us . . .
and there may be some snow on our roof . . .,
but we are still standing, damn it!
This, despite the powers that dwarf us.
We think of barns as red, but this is not always the case.
And some are not barn-shaped.
One thing that is especially appealing to us is the color red when it lingers triumphantly, like the memory of passion that still can generate warmth.
And sometimes the red is new, like a passion learned or discovered despite our age.
Maybe it’s
not just patina we have acquired. Old barns have “character,” whatever that
term means. I think of Kim’s dad, living in the woods in Michigan’s U.P.,
telling me that one thing he liked about retiring to the woods was that he did
not have to deal with assholes any more (he had just met me). Kim smiles to
recall how he would keep repairing his favorite pants, coats and shirts,
stitching them up with Frankenstein stitches of any old color. He did not see
the point, at his age, of buying new clothes or putting up with bullshit –
except maybe his own. He had character. Kim and I are approaching his age. Some of us aren’t cute any more. Instead, we have character.
Maybe we
just hope that if we love old barns, people will love us. And we do sometimes wear red.
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John
Perkins:
Our
barn story: In 1974, I took my first faculty position at Miami University in
Oxford, Ohio, just north of Cincinnati. A very rural area, which at the
time we liked. We bought our first house, just outside of Oxford; it was
a pre-Civil War house, and it had a barn, plus 16 acres. Presto, we were
farmers, in the eyes of the IRS if not God's. The first year we owned the
house, I had a research grant that provided a summer salary, woo-hoo! I
thought it might make the long Ohio summers a bit more prosperous, and then I
took a good look at our barn. It had a saddle-back roof, i.e. the
roof was on its way to collapse. We figured, fix it or lose it, so we
fixed. The entire summer salary went into the barn, plus some, but let me
tell you, we had a barn with a mighty fine roof.
Not only were we farmers, we were also share-croppers, an institution with a somewhat tawdry reputation. A "real" farmer down the road had been renting our barn and land for many years, and we kept up the tradition. His use of the barn was essentially as a brothel: he put his sows, with one boar, into the barn, and glory be, the sows came out pregnant. We were very proud that this miracle of procreation took place under the finest barn roof in southwestern Ohio, although the noises that pigs make when they get down to business, often at night, is not entirely dignified.
At one time our barn might have been red, but we could see no trace. It might have even had a Mail Pouch Chewing Tobacco ad painted on, but that, too was gone. We never got around to painting it.
Not only were we farmers, we were also share-croppers, an institution with a somewhat tawdry reputation. A "real" farmer down the road had been renting our barn and land for many years, and we kept up the tradition. His use of the barn was essentially as a brothel: he put his sows, with one boar, into the barn, and glory be, the sows came out pregnant. We were very proud that this miracle of procreation took place under the finest barn roof in southwestern Ohio, although the noises that pigs make when they get down to business, often at night, is not entirely dignified.
At one time our barn might have been red, but we could see no trace. It might have even had a Mail Pouch Chewing Tobacco ad painted on, but that, too was gone. We never got around to painting it.
Jerry Beasley:
When
I was a kid I spent a lot of time on the old "home place" in
"Sleepy Holler" off Beasley's Bend in the Cumberland River near
Lebanon, Tennessee. My dad grew up there. Uncle Wally stayed there, and the
farm had an old barn, built in 1900. He kept his mules there (yes, he plowed
with them until the early 50s and then kept them until they died many years
later). When my own daughters were little I had a small farm (no barn, but a
nice tractor shed) near Earleville, Maryland, about a mile from the Chesapeake
Bay. Had a few head of cattle, a large organic garden, and a big old farmhouse.
My daughters spent their formative childhood years there, helping out, and my
older daughter became quite a carpenter helping me--from the time she was 8 or
9 years old--as I restored the old farmhouse.
Kim - these images are beautiful. Your artistry and sweet nature shine through them.
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